Thursday, April 12, 2012

Airplanes...and Philly

Two of my least favorite things...
1. Airplanes with kids (because without kids, I actually like a plane ride!)
and 2. Philly hospitality

But after just a few hours of sleep, both Steve and I rose at 2am to gather four kiddos and way too much luggage tot eh Albuquerque airport for a trip to PA.  This trip was our first vacation as a family...
all for a race in Lancaster county.

We shuffled kids...
The boys played a few games...


We gave the lap baby a seat...just to survive the ride for a few more minutes...
And then we shuffled kids some more!
By the end of it all, I could hardly force a smile. And to make matters worse, my children fell asleep upon landing.  I savored the few moments of peace by gathering my bags and sleeping child in my arms as we got ready to get off the plane.  In moments, a flight attendant who I didn't bother to clean any of my children's cups of ice and soda through the trip (I took that initiative on my own) tapped my shoulder and asked if  was going to take the complementary magazines on the floor with me.

And then she said...because if you don't we have to clean them up.

In shock, I placed my sleeping child down and picked up the magazines.  I mumbled a few words of how as a nurse I also fill the role of a janitor every night (totally unnecessary to verbalize, but so true).  When finished, my sleeping child was wide awake...
But then I saw my nieces!  Miss Eden!
My twin sister...Sara

Oh, of course, we made a stop at the ice cream shop Grandma works at...Maya refused to turn around for a picture; it was the first time she had seen the infamous ice cream shop we all adore!
Yes, of course, there is the other niece...Miss Hannah!
The two younger kiddos were hesitant to take a photo with me....
And my phone lost it's space for images, so Steve was sadly behind the scenes on this particular post...
No fears, he jumps in with child like poses next!

Monday, April 2, 2012

To Finish This Race...

I've been contemplating running a marathon for a long time now...

It has come after years of set backs.  

After Shane passed away I coped through 2 things:
1. quilting
2. running
I made beautiful quilts for people I love, my family, my children...and then for a time, I place the quilting aside.  I have recently had a desire and passion to quilt endlessly.

I started training for a half marathon after he passed away as well.  Upon reaching the last few weeks of training, I fractured a toe and was out of running for a year...and then running was set aside for a long while as well.

When life settled after the many moves...and many jobs...and two additional children...
I decided it was time to start running again.

My younger sister and I trained hard, day after day for a marathon.  We rose at 3:30am on some Saturday mornings to accomplish our long 15-20 mile runs just so we could still be mommies and wives when the sun came up.  We ran hard!!!  There were times when our eye lashes froze, our water upon our belts definitely froze, and the only thing that carried us to the end of that long run was the laughter, the therapy (as we worked through our many issues together), and the electrolyte infused jelly beans and chocolate energy gel!  She found this marathon on March 31st...in Lancaster county...on Saturday.

The last Saturday, March 31st we experienced was in Lancaster was in 2007 when Baby Shane passed away suddenly.

Injury set me back through this training again...that along with a sudden respiratory bug, followed immediately by a sever allergic reaction and prednisone treatment, and then followed again by a GI bug.  

In sadness, but prompting, I settled to run the half marathon.  I was comforted by the Lord to know that "MY RACE" was all that really mattered.

Life will always give me set backs, it will always be met with challenges that need to be faced.  What I do with it is what matters in the end...will I raise my hands and say all is lost, or will I continue to move forward...no matter how far I THINK I should be by now.  All that matters is that I am moving forward in the end.

Here we are, with pre race giggles! Me, my twin Sara, and my mother in law, Sandy.

Had to get a picture at the starting line....we then moved away from the starting line to be in the middle of the pack for take off! 
 I almost posted to facebook while we took off...decided not to!
We came across many Amish folk running right along side us...girls in their dresses and boys in their suspenders and black pants!  It was an awesome site! 
My sister checked our pace and at several points-- we were running a good 9 minute pace...all with a sister who had trained up to about a max of 5 miles....and a 55 year old mother in law!  WOW! By the way....my mother in law placed FIRST in her age group!  AWESOME!!!  We ran side by side the entire way!
There I am...running with a smile.  My twin and I climbed a steep long hill and were admonished by spectators for smiling all the while!  You can't get a smile off our faces at times, especially when we have folk on the side lines cheering us on! 
I received a text at mile 12 from my husband, "Slow down...HA...we are almost there!"

They showed up about 2 minutes too late! 
So my sister and I made a pseudo finish for them!   
When I received my metal, I cried as I saw the date in large print...such a life changing day in my life... 

I am so grateful to have had all my family surrounding my on this day...and so honored to see little Aiden looking up at me in admiration! 
Had to add another race photo in...think I was one of few people taking pics along the way! 


Shane became a "FINISHER" of his mortal journey 5 years ago....
and it is with all of my heart that I long to run to steep hills and long paths in this life to become that great finisher that his valiant little spirit accomplished in 4 short months of this mortal journey.

Baby Shane...we love you so very much!

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Binky Bear

Last month, we decided it was time to say good bye to the much adored "binky"!  You see, Maya has started to assume that becoming a big girl requires using a binky; she never used one as an infant, but has picked up on the talent after seeing her BIG sister take one daily!
So, we gathered all of Lydia's binkies, placed them in her dentist bag, and went to build a bear to say goodbye to her binkies once and for all!

I can tell you now...looking back...she had no idea exactly what building a binky bear would really entail.
She walked hand in hand with Daddy--preferring his presence over mine in this journey!

And she chose a purple bear, in spite of my desperate attempt for her to choose the cute pink bear...or the smurf.  But Lydia, named after the weaver of purple in the scriptures, stayed true to her purple desire!
Lydia watched the bear being stuffed...
And then stuffed each binky, one by one, into the bear.
Without hesitation, she even placed the last binky in her mouth into to bears fluffy tummy.
She rubbed it's heart against hers, and did all the little ceremonial tasks you do when you Build-A-Bear!
And then she watched as it was stitched up for a final goodbye...I admit...
I cried...
Daddy helped her wash the bear all clean, and dress it in it's finest linens!



Lydia named her bear, "Binky Bear"!

And we all left hand in hand...



Half way home, after the pretzel and smoothie were gone, she began wondering how she could find her binkies.  In silly attempt, she peeked at the back of the bear, and then it hit her...
the binkies were gone.
We stoped along the busy freeway to comfort our sweet Lydia who could not possibly understand why she couldn't have something she loved so much anymore...

She held her eyes, gasped little breaths of air when she could, and just hurt for a long ride home.


To this day, I still feel around for those sweet little binkies she loved day and night...

Miss Lydia changed over night...

It's good...

And it's hard, as change is with your children!
I am happy to say she did smile again at the end of the car ride, thanks to Daddy's loud and fun music!

We all laughed little...and danced a little...
Miss Lydia, you are one beautiful girl!  We love you so much!!!