Lunch Break

There are some days when you know...when the Spirit whispers so clearly...that you are capable of all the Lord intends to have you walk through in this life. Yes, there are other days when the smallest steps cause so much agony and pain, but with a tweak in perception, those days pass; though the task is not any easier--the gift to endure better becomes an overriding force for good.

So, how many things would you change about your life right now? We'd all be fibbing a bit of we said that EVERYTHING was simply perfect, and yes, there are things I would change. However, I am inclined to say that I know that every path that I have walked has been necessary. Sometimes it looks ugly, and believe me sometimes it feels ugly...but each step has been calculated, numbered, and planned (by a Father who loves me so very much!). Some steps have been for my growth, others for my husband and children, and then others for people outside of our small family.

I am blessed to have a sister and husband who can see that a baby who loves her Momma still needs her Momma on LOOOONG days when Momma is gone. There are many days when I leave the house shortly after 6am and don't arrive home until 8-8:30pm. Maya is so young and attached to me still; Daddy and Aunt Sunny see that and they place themselves in a unique and humble position to recognize Maya's infant needs and act upon them. Often, it entails piling tired children into the car to make a trek up to the hospital for a little "pumping" break! Daddy will travel the course 2 times in a day if Maya is desperately needing me. I believe that sort of sacrifice is seen by the Lord...and looked upon with admiration!

This was one of those days! The kids played at the park...we enjoyed a longer break with our didactic classes, and though I was away from each of my children for another busy long day...I kinda wasn't!

I saw their smiling faces, laughed at them, blew dozens of kisses, gave dozens of hugs, said countless I love yous...and I was still their Mommy! A working Mommy, but a Mommy nonetheless!

I would rather be home with them every day...but the Lord can make hard things possible!

Today Lydia blew me kisses the whole way home from the hospital from her car seat. Her hand was smashed against her face, and one kiss after another smacked perfectly for me. She said, between the kisses, "I wuv you" and "miz you". They seem to love me more everyday, and I am loving them more as well...if that's even possible!