Sunday, November 23, 2014

Phases of human growth....the lies we've been told

There is something miraculous about being a mother.  Well, there are far more than a few things that make motherhood so wonderful.  

It is the hardest thing one can do, but from the moment you give your body up for the rearing of your children, with the unpredictable changes that come with pregnancy, you are learning the great law of sacrifice.  

When the child is born, and nights are broken into 6 plus segments, and your sleep comes last on the list of priorities, you are already understanding the unselfish art of genuine service.  

As tantrums rise, and language develops, though you bite your tongue, replacing words of frustration with one long deep breath, you are beginning to master the true concept of self control. 

Then, as the years pass, and children turn into teens, ready to take the world into their own hands, you will surely pull out that patience which has been brewing in a stream pot for over a decade now.  

Yet, in all, it's the unconditional love which gives life to each of the above attributes that carry us through motherhood with it's endless beautiful road.  

I am a mother to many children...from one in heaven whom I honorably endure an untold amount of time for, to the preschool and preteens in my home.  I am raising a generation up to God.  

As I school them, I find myself honored  to introduce their work load....and assure that it's done with Providence. Being a writer myself, I tend to lean towards the literature and history aspect of school, but it serves them well, as they have grown accustomed to my long group reading sessions and detailed writing assignments; it is a great time to test their comprehension and interpretation skills without a single sheet of paper!  I might add that my highest scores on the ACT were in math and science, so we really are pretty well rounded once the week is said and done!

Connor completed a word study this week for "governor". I thought it a perfect time of year for this word, hoping he would reference the scripture in Matthew, speaking of our Lord as our ultimate Governor. Though he didn't reference that, I was pleased to find that the Webster's 1828 definition of governor does indeed make reference to our supreme creator!  His assignment is below.  

I can't adequately explain how motherhood had given me opportunities to understand the character of God, but I know that by the opportunities that are presented to me often, I am learning through the submission of becoming a God fearing mother, how natural it is to love our children through  every phase in life.  It seems that when my response to every scenario is with love, every scenario plays out to a blessing which out weighs the investment ten fold.  I am not perfect, so I indeed falter and have to humbly seek correction from God and quickly ask forgiveness  from my babes; I surely know that I am in no way above them.  

Every day presents new challenges, but I pray I am worthy of instruction by the spirit to find joy in the phases of human development that the world tells us to fear; I'm finding I actually appreciate each stage far more than the last!  This past week, I looked at popular instruction theory  and news columns in rasing children  and I thought, "how absurdly strange...".  

"Take out the joy and you'll have brighter, more competitive children.....Let them know who's the boss, and they'll stop misbehaving..... Don't worry, this too shall pass.". Though I can wisely see the balance in some disciplining techniques, I have found that the approach of love, without inducing guilt or anger (neither kindling it in yourself), is the tried and true method to properly raise children and enjoy the process.  This doesn't come without heartache; parenting is a front row seat to God's view of you yourself, even that makes me cringe.  However great the pain, there is a happiness that only accompanies a soul which stands in confidence before the Lord.  

Peculiar things happen when you walk  the road less traveled!  Let's keep walking....


























Thursday, November 13, 2014

Shouts of agony....soothed in quiet hours

Been reading and teaching more about "Bambi" with my children through literature.  I call it life's lessons as well, because good books bring a spirit just as heart stirring as scriptural epiphanies, and beautiful poetic speeches.   

I thought this particularly touching tonight:

Bambi has feared, loved, admired, and grown to trust the "old stag" through his experiences. Bambi, feeling alone, comes upon the old stag in the forest; the stag exclaims, "don't you hear anything?". Bambi doesn't, even with the continued insistence from the old stag, "don't you hear anything yet?".  
They indeed come upon Friend Hare, caught frantically in a trap. It is then that we find how the old stag, and his mindful ears to every soul who sorrows in pain, shows deep godly love. "Lie still," he tells the rabbit, "be easy Friend Hare, it's I.  Don't move now.  Lie perfectly still."

In Friend Hare's agony, it was the still and quiet moments, when the old stag could help him best, that he found safety and continued life.  

Do we not see that in our pain, we can be still, call out to Father who is mindful of every soul, and find relief?  He actually says this to us clearly; "Be still, and know that I am God."

From a little old town, where God still loves and knows every joy and pain in my heart...as He does yours, Goodnight!

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

To impress though our worldy gain, but love in our humility....



I recently became part of a discussion regarding a woman and her current circumstances.  She joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, followed by her brother.  She left, followed by him as well. When she came back, he didn't. They live polar lives now. While she is home with young children, battling the real pain that comes with letting a house sit without repairs so the children can be clothed and fed, he lives a temporally beautiful life.  Most of us mom's understand that raising the children always overcomes the temporal things we miss out on, but it still hurts, gosh darnit.  You can bet she's  struggled with the added weight she's gained in giving her life over to child bearing and then child rearing and homeschooling, which I believe is where a lot of that weight comes from! Lol...personal experiences here!  In her insecurities regarding her desire to be an example of something he will want to come back to, her fear of the unappealing life is setting in as a visit with him approaches.  This is my first thought for this woman I do not know, but whom I pray for :

"Outward beauties always fade..... Bodies get bigger, disease sets in for even the most fit and beautiful of us all, dust settles, moth corrupts, teeth break (my unfortunate life, lol), cars wreck, clothes get holes, and homes settle and ruin. If I were you I would stop thinking about impressing him and luring him into this life that is so hard, but truly brings so many rewards.  The times when I have thought about how embarrassed I am to be with my family...because I've gained 60 pounds since they saw jme, my children's clothes barely fit, and my home is no more than a small box....I find myself miserable and portraying the life I don't live.  When I let go and smile my truest smile, stand straight and confident, interact with my children as I do on an every day basis, and draw my family towards me with pure  warmth and love--they stand in admiration. Even if he (your brother) doesn't see it now, he will one day see it once one or more  of the above sorrows stirs his faith in the worth of the world.  The world is a foundation we can never really rely on, everyone must face that eventually.  I'm certain he is an amazing man to have joined the church to begin with, he will "see" again someday.  Just love him. The Lord used me and my family as an instrument to draw my young sister into the church after I joined many years earlier.  All my sister's joined very quickly after I entered the waters of baptism, but my last sister jumped in after my infant son suddenly passed away...she was the last person in my family to hold him and enjoy his perfection.  God is in control --we just need to live in the light we love and trust....but let us truly trust it and dispel fear.  Love to you and your brother."

Do you find yourself struggling to make  ends meet?  Never vacationing, battling health ailments because you give so much, repurposing furniture over and over for the next need, and crying out to God  for your next daily sustaining meal?

You're not alone, carry on. You are building eternal worth. 

Love from a tired, BLESSED Mommy --